I hope you can begin to find your footing in a world which slants and skews as you try to move forward. There may be no more rhyme or reason to its shifting and slewing, no rhythm or cadence that can be anticipated for the great dance. It’s tempting then to want to shuffle slowly, to be cautious, and to try to hold onto something or someone to help you balance, but it all comes down to the core, really.
Once your center is solid, firmed, and defined then your sense of self can be the steadying force in your life, and each movement forward will grow in strength, and grace, and confidence. Until then, exercise your senses, your muscles, your mind, and your inner ear so that you can hear the flow of spirit and stay true to yourself.
Don’t be daunted by times past where you feel you might have wasted time or effort and let go of the feeling of having been robbed. Without violence, bring an awareness of your decisions to the forefront, and examine the pressures upon you rejecting any which do not align with what you want and with the direction you want to take your life.
Like a rudder, adjust in small smooth movements, and let the changes gradually move you in the right direction. Unless there is about to be a big crash, take back control of your life with quiet determination and a sense of responsibility.
I love how you are learning to be flexible and proactive. Try to find some good in every day and don’t give up on yourself.
Your sense of humor is a wondrous thing, and I’m sure you will find it gracing you again soon.
Try to be patient with yourself and others.
Until the next cup of coffee, be gentle and honest,
I’m so sorry that things have been so hard for you lately.
I know how hard it can be to focus on your goals when you feel like you are barely surviving.
I hope you know that I see you, when you struggle to find any purpose to your life.
Continue to keep your goals and activities private and work slowly and meticulously towards the goals you have set for yourself with writing, art, and music.
It is okay if the hits don’t hit, and if you feel awkward and bad at these things.
You are bad at them. You will only get better with continuing to apply your time and effort towards them in a way that is enjoyable as well as productive.
I know it’s a continuous challenge for you to try and remain hopeful when you feel your own place in the world is so fragile.
Things will get better eventually. I believe that for you.
My wish for you is that your mind can settle and focus, and that your heart will heal.
Do not abandon yourself even when it seems that others have abandoned you.
Cherish your life as best you can. Be silly and awkward and human. It’s a delicious combination.
Maybe you’re not worth the time and effort to be cared for – admit how high maintenance you are.
What if you are, though, valuable, and precious and funny and smart and kind and worthy of love?
Would you hide behind the lies of your youth about your worth or would you rather develop yourself and your skills so you can take a good kind of pride in yourself and your work.
Just for yourself. Just for you. Just because you can.
That seems more empowering and a better way to spend your time than moaning over things you can’t control.
Cultivate some discipline in your life – food, exercise, rest, good boundaries, and just focus in on being there for yourself every day.
