Summer breeze is rustling in these trees Whispering of things that cannot be Too hot here to think about it My mind still turns it over
If only I had minded more If only I had been lovelier If only I had given you what you need I’m drowning in these memories Drowning in the summer lands
Oceans in the summer lands Drowning in the lost and lonely If only If only
The tears are sliding down my cheeks My heart grows heavy even in the light of the warmest sun The rains are falling in my spirit As I wonder If I had been more mindful If I had been more humble If I had been more everything you like Would you still be seeking A place beside me Would you still be needing A space next to me Would we still be we and not alone If only If only If only I knew just what to do now If only I could bring you back to you now If only I could mend all that went wrong I would do that
That’s what I’d do
I’d find a way to get somewhere you could love me
I’d find a way to be someone you could love
Again And I wouldn’t be here sitting in this shade under these trees
Swamped by the ocean and drowning in the if only If only If only
These are clips of the song Drummer which I wrote while I was in Milwaukee. I’ve been holding rehearsals with myself, and I had fun with this song because I added in some extemporaneous bits. Still catching up a bit after vacation, but almost caught up. Almost.
So, I’ve been trying to prepare a few simple songs for open mic night, and got all inspired and distracted from that to try and figure out how to play a long, syncopatedly complicated Tom Waits song.
This song has been on my heavy rotation for a long time and is a story-song with nine verses and the chorus only in there 3 times.
The structure of the song lends itself pretty well for memorization, but I had to really envision a story from the lyrics to try and internalize the unfolding of the story in order to know which verse came next.
I enjoyed the challenge of trying to find a way to play this song for a single acoustic guitar, and recorded this exploration so I could review to see what worked for it and what didn’t so much. Towards the end I play around a little more with ways to adjust the rhythm and talk about the percussive aspect.
As usual, when trying to work out the guitar part, the accuracy and ease of singing the song falls a little bit. It’s like learning anything – if you have part of something worked out really well, and then add in or learn something in addition to what you know, the original bit that had been pretty smooth will become jangled until the new part is well integrated into it.