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Music Update with Videos!

My friend, Rosalie, who collaborated with me on the Patchwork Blue album will be coming into town in October. Be on the look out for more about that! Very excited to have some time to sit down with her and work on some music!

Recently, I’ve ramped up music practice, going to open mics, and compiling the business end of Promo – which meant some minor tech upgrades, and rearranging how I use my devices. Some of this back end stuff requires quiet thinking and planning.

As amazing as it might seem, I’ve been taking some time off here and there to relax and enjoy myself, and I think my art and music is better for it, if only because I am better for it.

Here’s a little glimpse of a new-ish song. I tend to write a new song a week. The second week or sooner, I try to put some music to it. Often will release a really early video of the gist of it on Instagram or in my Facebook music group, and then will spend a few weeks refining it – trying it out at an open mic etc.

This one I played out this week, but it is still being developed, and this is something I have been appreciating about music, and that is the refining process. On YouTube, I took a Truth and a Lie and deconstructed it, analyzed it and put it back together in a way that helps me understand what’s going on in the song better, and it’s the second in a series I’ve started of Songwriting Workbooks.

This is: Will I Be Ready

And this one is a really new one – just a few times through called ‘We Return to the Sea’

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New Song: Drowning in the Ocean of If Only

Drowning in the Ocean of If Only

Summer breeze is rustling in these trees
Whispering of things that cannot be
Too hot here to think about it
My mind still turns it over

If only I had minded more
If only I had been lovelier
If only I had given you what you need
I’m drowning in these memories
Drowning in the summer lands

Oceans in the summer lands
Drowning in the lost and lonely
If only
If only

The tears are sliding down my cheeks
My heart grows heavy even in the light of the warmest sun
The rains are falling in my spirit
As I wonder
If I had been more mindful
If I had been more humble
If I had been more everything you like
Would you still be seeking
A place beside me
Would you still be needing
A space next to me
Would we still be we and not alone
If only
If only
If only I knew just what to do now
If only I could bring you back to you now
If only I could mend all that went wrong
I would do that

That’s what I’d do

I’d find a way to get somewhere you could love me


I’d find a way to be someone you could love

And I wouldn’t be here sitting in this shade under these trees

Swamped by the ocean and drowning in the if only
If only
If only

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Music and Podcast Links

Updated version of Cosmic Beat

Under Three Minute Update Wendy Says Things

A blurp about what's going on with me, and why I've been missing getting podcasts out in a timely fashion. (It's money) — Support this podcast:
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  4. Energy Work: Spirit Has No Gender
  5. Trauma Recovery: Something to Lose
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New Song: A Truth and a Lie

Song: A truth and a Lie

They say guns are not the problem
And it’s true another black man died
60 bullets in his back
And it’s a lie mass shooting at the mall
At the school Uvalde where they hide

They say guns are not to blame and it’s a truth
Domestic violence and some 80 proof (whiskey) one could admit
No protection from the paper that was writ
Guns are not to blame and it’s just another lie
When youth can walk into a store, no training and walk out again he’s armed

Guns are our constitutional right it’s not untrue that there’s a clause for the population to have an excuse to bear
But it’s a lie that there should be no regulation or oversight

About the babies they say they they are pro-life up until they’re born or to save a mother’s life and so it’s the god forsaken motherfucking truth and it’s a lie

And the one side dithers righteously about how they’re better than the other and it’s a truth
And it’s a lie
They refuse to take a deeper look in their closets where they hide
The reasons that the other side can and do entrench and build and gain

And they comb their cocktail hair and put on their cocktail gowns
They all strut before us in a line of union and union-busting clowns
Like the boyfriend or the girlfriend or the theyfriend who will do no more than be just slightly better than your ex
And expect your full devotion knowing well the slim prospects

And the climates heating up and they say they really care
But when it comes to changing
point the finger over there
And I finally understood
That I finally know the truth
That it’s a lie
And it’s the truth
They’ve buried and they’ve hidden all the truth under the lie
And the lie upon the dung hill sipping wine and eating pie
And sell us all the same old shit
We’ve been hearing all along
And shrug and say it’s true that it is wrong
And it’s a lie that they’ve told us and they tell us
And that why the feeling people
The empaths and the impoverished have to cry and weep
And gnash the teeth worn down from the gnashing and the bearing and the injustice of it all
Because justice is a truth that in America’s a lie
Another lie painted over the motherfucking truth
But I don’t have proof
No I don’t have proof no
Nor an alibi
So when they serve the shot of silence
Force it down my throat
Just know that I’ll be grateful when I die
Justice gets us all alive in the end
And that’s the truth
But I don’t have proof

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On Remote Location. Back Soon

I’ve been caretaking a property, so apologies for the lack of regular posts.

Am rethinking how I use this space as well…might make it more of a weekly endeavor rather than shooting for daily.

I played open mics 5/7 days – hit all of the ones in town, so that was fun.

I’ve been out in the wilderness surrounded by plants, pets, and wildlife. It’s been rejuvenating as well as work. 🙂

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Mixtures Poetica Preview

I am picking this project back up. Four tracks are finished, not mastered, and I have four more planned to finish prior to releasing (date unknown).

This project brings me so much joy because it combines my love of words and poetry with musical soundscapes. If your curious, the playlist is available on SoundCloud.