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Different Now

Subtle shades have fallen

In lavender and blues

The sky glows pink on that horizon

No clouds on furrowed brows

How crisp the winter morning grows

Subdued

I miss the waking joy I felt

I miss the anticipation

Dogged daily duties are just passing

Time

My spirit rises slowly

To meet another empty day

To greet and see the beauty

Still, it’s not the same

I fill up all the empty spaces

The quiet lasts too long

That part of me still pouting

Don’t want to love

Don’t want to move

Don’t want to stay

Don’t want to feel this way

Again

Drink a cup of coffee

Thinking of the ones who love me

Life abounds me

Love surrounds me

I know that joy is not essential

Joy will visit once again

Slogging through the morning

In its subtle shades of blue

My sighing breath a meditation

Of all the ways that I miss you

Born to love

Taught to give

Slowly learning how to let go

Slowly letting go

I show up ready every time

Open hearted

True

I let the healing taking its course

I let the difference be

I’ll get used to who I am now

This dawning light on me

I glow a little brighter now

A little larger

A little lighter

When my home appears

To welcome me

There will be no lingering

Regret

No lingering in the past

I watch the different ways

The light tastes

In lavender and blues

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Slow to Love, Slow to Let Go

There’s no apology to this love

Did you think this heart would run forever

Do you think the beat has stopped

I won’t say sorry for the way I give myself

Whole and complete

Or the roots growing deep

When I call them back one by one

From their spread throughout the world

Would I have shouted from the mountains

How my love for you was true

Would I have flown banners through the sky

Would I have written on the ocean waves

The way I feel for you

Reluctantly each strand and tendril

Unwind from how they grew

I am toppled now

By gentle breezes

Blown away by sighs

I’m drifting and I’m tumbling

Through a world with no disguise

Unanchored and unmoored

Releasing and let going

Every teardrop full of loving

I’ll get somewhere in some time

I’m not yet there

The shape of you still shapes me

In a way I really like

So I linger here a while

As the sunsets on this night

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Indications

Explorers know

Are well acquainted with the dead ends

The sudden drop of vertical stone

The thorn riddled thicket

The rushing river

No bridge

The lovers know

Are well acquainted with the dread ends

The sudden drop of perpetual phone

The scorn riddled tempest

The shushing shiver

No bridge

Explorers and lovers know

Are well acquainted with endings

Learning and letting go

I can tell by your shoes and your eyes

You’ve been down a few paths

Where the way slipped away

And you’ve had to backtrack

And find a new trail

I’ve stood on a ledge once or twice

Beautiful views which led nowhere nice

I’ve been caught in the brambles

Left there in a shambles

Watched the love flow out of my life

Explorers and Lovers

Recover

It’s true

Resupply and prepare

For adventures anew

If you’ll take my hand now

There’s a trail that I’ve found

And I’d like to share it with you