I have big questions
(Atheists are easy)
Did you ever wonder
If god is all powerful
Why those painful things
Occur
So much strife
So much grief
So much wrong is done
Worse yet
The wrongs done in the name
Of something else
I have big questions I am saving
For the day when I will die
Most start with Why
And some with
How could you let that happen
Maybe I will dissipate
My consciousness released
Maybe I won’t remember
How my time here was fully spent
But just in case it lingers
When I wake to reality
I have big questions that I’m living
That I’m keeping safe
Just wait and see
Are you a sadist, God?
Do you revel in the suffering down here?
Are you ‘teaching us a lesson’
Because even I am aware
That there are different modes and methods
Of teaching something true
And pain and suffering are garbage
Ways to get a message through
Are you keeping us in pain and discontent
So that when we jump through
Complicated hoops
We can receive a bit of grace
No complaining
Just rejoicing
That you have life at all
Be grateful
Says creator
Even if it’s hell you’re praying from
Dear God are you blind
So deaf you cannot hear the cries
Are you there at all, I wonder
And if I believe that’s true
What on earth does that say of you
That you allowed it
On your watch
You allowed it
On the clock
God allowed it
I’m in shock
If loving is what you claim to do
Then why did you allow it
Why did you make the rules
Catch 22
If God’s really a goddess
She isn’t off the hook
Does she turn her head
Does she refuse to look
Unless the prayers are made
At a sacred time, a sacred day
Will she withhold a loving guiding hand
Let the ills be come what may
Does she touch the budding blossom
Does she control the rains
Could she alleviate our suffering
Alleviate our pain
Does she laugh softly to herself
As we struggle hard against
The wars and woes of life
Every penny spent
Goddess allowed it
The times we were punched down
Goddess allowed it
Each and every time
So she could come along a little later
Pat us on the head and say
Good job growing stronger
From the things I could have stopped
And if he or she can’t break the rules
Who set them and who could
Is there something greater
Than a god or goddess who would
Hold back their ability to salvage
Their ability to save
Humans from the ugliness that
Life throws the human way
And if I were believer
And if my faith were strong
Could I stand there at the gate of death someday
In the end and still be wrong
Because God and Goddess they allowed it
And I worshipped anyway
