Different Now

Subtle shades have fallen

In lavender and blues

The sky glows pink on that horizon

No clouds on furrowed brows

How crisp the winter morning grows

Subdued

I miss the waking joy I felt

I miss the anticipation

Dogged daily duties are just passing

Time

My spirit rises slowly

To meet another empty day

To greet and see the beauty

Still, it’s not the same

I fill up all the empty spaces

The quiet lasts too long

That part of me still pouting

Don’t want to love

Don’t want to move

Don’t want to stay

Don’t want to feel this way

Again

Drink a cup of coffee

Thinking of the ones who love me

Life abounds me

Love surrounds me

I know that joy is not essential

Joy will visit once again

Slogging through the morning

In its subtle shades of blue

My sighing breath a meditation

Of all the ways that I miss you

Born to love

Taught to give

Slowly learning how to let go

Slowly letting go

I show up ready every time

Open hearted

True

I let the healing taking its course

I let the difference be

I’ll get used to who I am now

This dawning light on me

I glow a little brighter now

A little larger

A little lighter

When my home appears

To welcome me

There will be no lingering

Regret

No lingering in the past

I watch the different ways

The light tastes

In lavender and blues

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