She says I’ve lost weight again
I tell her I’ve been lovelorn
We both know it is a lie
I’ve gained two pounds since I saw her last
Tears no longer roll down these cheeks
…
It’s Lady Gaga I reply
What does she sing about
About relationships between people
She watches the neighborhood rolling through the window
As she says: It is very difficult to accept sweet love after abuse, I think
That might be true I tell her
The Lady sings
…
He says people who love are duped
That passive people are easily controlled
God is an asshole
Love is a scam to keep people
To keep people from success and whatever
I watch him drift away in clouds of thoughts
I show up daily in love
The grand illusion
…
He says that he would drive me crazy
I could never put up with him
We agreed
Made room for a friendship
Where romance could not take hold
…
She said I don’t need to be put down
Or treated badly
I wondered how much room to make
For bad days and trying times
Where and how to draw healthy lines
There are no answers outside
Of this heart
