I want to be better
More friendly
More open
More kind
I want to be consistent
Disciplined
Organized
Life is messy
Waves of distractions
Knock me from my feet
I tumble over opportunities
Choosing heart over plans
Meeting needs with disregard for
The outline
The bullet points
The lists
Crumple the paper and start again
I am hung upside down
Shaken
Coins drop from my pockets
I lost a boot
Twenty times I almost got it done
Almost
Almost
I write a list of the things I did
I burn it rather than share it
Flames rise from the actions
Which take place in the dark
The left hand doesn’t even know
The right hand exists
So much I never say
The avalanche clears it away
I check in with my heart
What to do today
