I listen to the rattling words
Bouncing through my head
I try to get them into line
I remember what you said
Rather what was implied
Shifting goalposts on a whim
You had me always striving
To try and become just what you wanted
Even though you changed your mind
If I ever I began to close in upon the form
I should be louder, softer, bolder, shy
I could be thinner, thicker, smarter, quiet
I could be stronger, weaker, taller, sicker
I jumped through hoops until I cried
It’s not enough
It’s all too much
Frazzled, dizzy, restless, sad
Spinning in the vortex of unstated expectations
striving always for the few articulated bars
Of a song full of dissonance the key was always
Changing
This dance never slowed down from a frenzy
Until one day I stopped
Cooperating in the ragged ragtime rhthym
And set about with drum in hand
To beat out a new percussion
Soft and slow
Long and low
You cannot even see me now
I glide upon the clouds
You cannot ever hold me now
I’m mist and falling snow
Look
Look
And you will never see me coming
You will never see me go
I have entered deep within the realm
Of spirit
A place I never fear to find you there
This is a place that you refuse to go
I know you’re out there somewhere
Spewing nonsense once again
Probably found a target
Take her for the spin
Maybe she likes the dance
Maybe she finds it suits her
I am free and floating
Far from the pages that you’d written
The ink is flowing freely
This story is my own
I thank you
Many blessings
Upside down
I kiss the stone
